here's a question

if i decided to focus on liberation and movement building, instead of whether or not i was pretty/desireable/interesting/sexy, what exactly would the effect be? would i just know that i was ok most of the time, and focus on writing/organizing/meeting ppl/facilitating fun workshops/etc? would my amazing ability to be completely focused on a single task serve me right and would i shine again- rather than feeling fucking deflated, unfocused, etc.... yep. that's what i wanna do. no more getting all wrapped up in getting affection/etc. crap it all.