i am happy with my friend j. i have to say, though, that tonite i was feeling a little over stimulated by the scene- happy dykes/bi wymn, hanging out, loving on each other, together, talking about vibrators and dildos and sex, and damned if i didn't wanna just get down right then and there, tear clothes off and drown myself in breasts and sweat and sighs and beautiful, beautiful pussy.
i have to be careful. i can't decide to not oversexualize my relationships with men and turn around to do that with my friends, my network, my support beams, my team. i love the women in my life, in so many ways- and it's true, that sometimes i love to kiss them, hold their bodies close to mine, make crazy love, but that is only a small part of a larger, wholistic and lovely relationship.
i love you all so much. may we never part.
ectomorphing endomorphs burn paper for warmth in asylum beds while wondering where their mothers are no one to help you now the white walls scream not like there ever was
7.01.2004
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