i was contemplating

creating another blog for this material, but after conversation with my housemates i have decided to include it here. regardless of my current decisions to 1) not relate with people (specifically men) based on sex/sexuality/manipulating sexism and 2) to not date anyone until January, i am motherfucking horny and I love sex as a form of expression and relating. I have committed myself to not giving in to the sexual repression replete in society- the repression that dictates our rape culture. I love to talk about sex, i love to have sex, i love sex- i love, even more, getting people's deep dark thoughts about sex out of them. it's too bad i can't be a good lover to otis right now- we had fabulous sexual possibility.

current sexual fantasy:
blindfolded. gagged. cuffs on both wrists; the cuffs are attached to each other behind my back. occasionally in my thoughts there is a black thong, garter belt & thigh highs, sometimes i am bareskinned. the male is indeterminate; sometimes he is a recent lover, sometimes he is one long past. always he is dominant, and nearly faceless.
i am on my back. he pulls me up to his kneeling form by my hair or neck; he puts his dick in my mouth carefully, slowly moving himself in as much as he can, pulling me on to him. i lick the vein lining the length of his cock with my tongue, savoring the taste of his sweat.
he pushes me off of him and flips me over roughly, taking me from behind forcefully, hitting my upturned ass hard with his hand as a I groan into my gag. he uses my cuffed hands as a handle to pull me harder onto his long, hard cock. i groan louder as my pussy drips onto my sheets.
He pulls out and i whine; i want him back inside. he shushes me, pushing my face into the pillow carefully he kisses my back and starts rubbing my asshole with his well-lubricated finger. His condomed dick rests momentarily at the gate of my ass; he starts pushing slowly in...

ok. ack. that turned more into softcore than i wanted it too... but i am reluctant to edit it. oh well.