in the thick

of some crazy constant drama. it feels sometimes like there's nowhere to turn, that i have no respite. but that's not true-- there are stretches where I am thankful nothing totally shitty is happening, that i am getting to be a better person, that i am working slowly and consistently toward a better life.

i have learned so much in the last few days. I've learned a lot about myself. i've learned a lot about the people around me. and it's because instead of running i've rumbled. i've listened to the advice and i've gone to the places that I don't want to go. Instead of running I stayed, but without bitterness, and I was received with love and hope. And honestly. It was refreshing, and terrifying, if I am totally honest.