paint self care for me.

I listen to calming music or podcasts during the day.

I walk, every hour, every day.

I walk longer during my lunch break.

I smile and listen when others are discharging.

I do not internalize other people's feelings.

I create, follow and evaluate my 411 every day.

in the thick

of some crazy constant drama. it feels sometimes like there's nowhere to turn, that i have no respite. but that's not true-- there are stretches where I am thankful nothing totally shitty is happening, that i am getting to be a better person, that i am working slowly and consistently toward a better life.

i have learned so much in the last few days. I've learned a lot about myself. i've learned a lot about the people around me. and it's because instead of running i've rumbled. i've listened to the advice and i've gone to the places that I don't want to go. Instead of running I stayed, but without bitterness, and I was received with love and hope. And honestly. It was refreshing, and terrifying, if I am totally honest.

this coming week.

take nothing personally.

be deep in the knowledge that i can fix my mistakes.

i love myself.

i love myself.

i love myself, and any reaction that others have to me and my light is a reflection only of their own feelings, needs and problems.
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i am no victim of life. i shape change.
change is my daily reality. i determine the path my steps take. 

i practice what i want to become.
each day I am becoming more patient, more calm, more present, more loving. 

we practice what we want to create.
we practice what we want to create. we practice what we want to create. 

i remember that i exist only in relationship to other people and systems.
when i live in self love i show others the love that they also deserve.

i accept that I cannot change others, but I can hold standards for my own life.
I have healthy boundaries and I communicate them with love and self-acceptance. 

i willingly engage in and support transformative justice processes for accountability and getting in right relationship.
i forgive. i take responsibility. i make right. i decide to completely accept my shame as part of my healing.

i create more possibilities in the face of scarcity thinking.
when my mind feels constricted and I am triggered, i open my mind and my heart to allow for powerful vulnerability. transformation is on the other side of my fear. 

I act from and towards love.

I act from and towards love.