i think i realized that when i hang out with reed i feel like shit, because he holds me at arms length. i think that sucks. i think i am not going to hang out with him for a while. and i am going to be totally ok with that- i am going to put good, loving effort into some other folks for a little while. yeh. i have lots of other deep and meaningful relationships, and i can wait for reed to come back with some vulnerability. i hope he's not mad that i slammed the car door... i always get scared that someones mad. fuckit.
i like l. she's rad. i'm super into hanging out with her.
ectomorphing endomorphs burn paper for warmth in asylum beds while wondering where their mothers are no one to help you now the white walls scream not like there ever was
5.10.2005
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